3.03.2011

Squirrels


There is a park near my work, which i believe it's madison square park? and a wannabe In and Out called shake shack is there, and there are tons of squirrels.. FRIENDLY squirrels, they pretty much take your food from your hands, which is super cute and scary too, but if i were a squirrel i'd so want to live there, and hang out like they do. Looks fun!

I lama you if you lama me..



8.23.2010

Day 1

I'm at my first job here in New York.
Pretty easy.
Not the dream job.
My 1st income! (which is very important)
Oh gosh, to wake up early again, is gonna be hell.
Still hunting until I can get paid to dance
I miss dancing!!
A Lot!
I can see myself getting bored.
I actually need a nap right now.
Very greatful to have a job.
I know it's my first day but it feel like forever.

p.s it's been a long day

7.06.2010

It's official


I'm dying!!
I feel everything right now, and I can't stand the pain.

7.05.2010

Hello July


while all else do what they do, I can't help myself but to feel frustrated.

6.30.2010

Sleep

The last 6 month, I can swear I did not sleep this comfortably.
I had so much going on, and so much on my mind. Waking up was a chore, waking up was a must.. I had to be more than ready for each day. I was scared to be caught off guard.

NOW
Been having the craziest dreams, my mind has been exploring as I sleep. I can't get up, I can't get the day started as before, I feel a bit disoriented when I wake.
Do I feel content? What is my mind doing as I sleep? why have I become a deep sleeper?

I can't wait for change!

6.23.2010

I get it.


For what it is..

You can do everything that you can to make me feel like the worst person alive.
Isolate me from the rest, and making me feel left out does hurt, and it's been working so far.

I choose love.. love allows me to do anything. I will not be judge for loving and believing in it.

To you.. I hope you find it too!

6.03.2010

I, Cancer; Him, Pisces

It is no wonder you fell in love with a Pisces; this is one of the most heavenly matches for you because you share a near-psychic ability to communicate. At times, all you need to do is look at one another to let each other know what's up. Pisces is the most highly developed of the water signs (they're great at reading body language) and has the strongest need of all the water signs to relieve suffering in others. Pisces know your strongest fears without whispering a word, and they know how to soothe you, too. Pisces will never hurt you, for they are so easily hurt themselves.

Nowhere is Pisces' intuition more apparent than when you two disagree. Pisces can bypass the angry words and see your pain and frustration. The Fish swims to the depths of your underlying feelings and thoughts. They'll unravel your psychic knots so well it's mind-blowing! Pisces is the last sign of the zodiac, which makes them the most empathetic and in tune with the Universe. Pisces always speaks to the hidden rather than the obvious; they see so clearly.

You like control but Pisces isn't into power struggles, so they don't mind. They will be willing to have you lead because they want many of the same things you do: a stable home, children, culture, and the opportunity to express themselves creatively. Pisces are refined and elegant. You both experience the conflict between the need for solitude and a fun social life. Pisces have to spend time meditating on the deeper meaning of life, which you are also more than willing to do.

In the privacy of the bedroom you will encounter the full force of their emotions. Pisces never view sex as recreation, but rather as an out-of-this-world communion of two souls. Sex between you two is spiritual, lusty, powerful and ardent. Pisces will worship you, thrill you, and clasp you in the full force of their love for you. In return, you will transmit passion to your lover on a freer level than you've ever been able to with anyone else. You satisfy perfectly one another's needs. As said earlier, Pisces speaks best without words, for their sign rules symbols and gesture, and this makes sex mind-blowing indeed.

Both of you are romantic and sentimental creatures, and will enjoy reading poetry to each other out loud, spreading the bed with rose petals, burning scented candles, and playing special music to accompany your lovemaking. There is no end to the care you will take of one another.

Pisces are not usually oriented toward making money, so hopefully you can make a major contribution. Still, there are Pisces who do very well financially in the creative arts. Pisces must go with the careers their hearts dictate to them, or they will be miserable. Pisces have trouble dealing with large doses of reality, so you may have to be the more pragmatic and realistic part of the team. Reality bruises delicate Pisces, so they will spread a thin veil of love around both of you for protection. The world you enter will be more beautiful than any you have ever seen.

This is true, blissful love, and you and your Pisces will protect, nurture, and strengthen the bonds that hold you close

6.02.2010

can JUNE be any more crazier??!?!


June 4th
Hector's birthday party
June 5th
Colleen's BBQ (on a roof)
Valarie's going away party
June 11th
Shima's BBQ
June 12th
Karen's BBQ
Skye's Birthday Dinner
Sarah's shin dig
June 19th
Alondra's Party
June 24th
Lizbeth Graduation
June 25th
Wisdom teeth pull out. ;(
(ouch)

when did i become so busy?? must stay focus..

6.01.2010

June

then July then August.. wish i knew an exact date.. but it's in August!!

5.26.2010

5.24.2010

"I feel"

My life has changed drastically in less than 4 months. I live with my grandmother and my patience have been tested more than I can count. And tho change keeps happening, I feel like i'm streaming down a huge waterfall with all my belongings.
I feel like a ticking bomb, trying to hold it all together.
Security is missing.

4.20.2010

WE is more important than ME!



"Loving you is loving me, cuz with us 1+1 is 3 when YOU & ME became WE" - TDL

4.12.2010

poop babies

I was suppose to get my period on the 9th, but I didn't.. my boobs seemed bigger and I started to eat a lot more or at least I had tons of cravings mostly sweet stuff. My body started to form in a weird shape. I thought about my mom and how she was once skinny. I've been watching a lot of "16 and Pregnant" on MTV. Honestly its' pretty darn sad, and how young people are just not ready. I know I'm not. At my sister's house last night I looked at my body more.. My lumps my lovely lady lumps. Gosh.. I definitely have a square body. Im sure it mainly looks like an upside down triangle but with a little help of food, I'm sure it can turn into a perfect square. Did not sleep much last night. I tossed and turned. Felt like something was coming. (I'm thinking there could of been a small earthquake too.) This morning I woke up, and I knew it. Bloody Monday.


..as for my lumps.. some hott tea has help me get rid of my poop babies.

3.08.2010

Crazy Emotional

I don't want to be sad,
mad,
scared,
lonely,
needy,
confused,
weird,
distant,
stressed,
hurt.

I want to be loved. I want to feel warmth.
It's a once a month deal, and it's a big deal. I love my emotions, but gosh.. they sure mess me up.

3.02.2010

she's leaving home.

This view can convince anyone one to stay.

Quoting a quote

"Love has really affected [my songwriting]. I know how to handle a man now. So it's talking about the love rather than, you know, being annoyed with boys. He's like Jim Morrison meets Charles Manson meets Jesus meets a little bit of Elvis. He's a walking genius. Just standing next to him makes me smarter. He's good for me. He's not a pussy in any way, shape or form. He's the boss; he calls the shots. But I like that. I've been waiting for someone I couldn't steamroll." - Katy Perry


REALISTICALLY

This is.. no bueno!

2.26.2010

To Pack

I have no idea, how, what, or even close to knowing about packing.
Haven't done it in three years.
Suppose, I can ask my room to pack itself..

2.25.2010

THURSDAYSS..


I love Thursdays!
I like Wednesdays more but it being Thursday, I'm actually Loving it at the right time!

2.15.2010

I've earn lonesome

This past weekend was a bit lonely and more than anything I missed everyone I love.
I understand much more today, and everyday it gets better.
Happy Chinese New Years!!

Moto

2.04.2010

I Love Jackie Ma

BIG MOVES

My dance training ended on Tuesday
My effort in taking a ballet class
My last month here at the Symcox's residence
My packing that needs to be done
My cleaning out everything I don't need
My fight in searching for some quick cash
My Valentine is too far
My heart is in NY
MY BIG MOVE!